*~ A Little Corner Of Inanity ~*

You'll all have to bear with me...I'm rather new to the process of "online journaling". I'll be honest with you...I don't even really keep a journal in real life. Well,I do,somewhat,but it's more a random collection of the babbling that constitutes my thoughts. I'd keep a journal, but I discovered that I'm not able to write the things that are my true thoughts and experiences. I write things down,and then go back,and try to make them sound good...I think this is a sign of perfectionism. How very unlike me. I think I am just scared to death that one day, I'll die in some chance accident,and people will be going through my drawers, and they'll find my journals....then,they'll read them and think, "My God, what kind of person was she!" *laughs* A bit paranoid,I aagree,but true...it's all because my mother once found a journal of mine when I was a teenager,and overreacted because of something I had written about. I think I've been traumatised to the point that I can't bear to write about my own life on paper, not even to rip it up later. However, this seems much easier...after all,who really cares enough to read a web page about the things that I come to be enlightened upon on a semi-daily basis?
However,I do have my limits. I will NOT write a page about what I had for breakfast,the new pair of shoes I bought,or why electric curlers are a true gift from God. I am not nearly that pathetic. Well...no! I am not.
Those of you who know me online, or both online and in reality, and who have the intense pleasure of speaking with me rather often..*lol*, may have noticed something. Namely, the fact that I've been telling everyone I am "incognito". Why do I do this, you ask?
The reason I've been incognito, other than the fact that the word is beyond fabulous, is that I feel very IGNORED by perhaps 90% of my "online friends". People don't answer my IM's, leave abruptly when I come on ICQ, and don't answer e-mail that I clearly mark "I NEED TO KNOW!!!". In the immortal words of Amos, "Because you can look right through me, walk right by me, and never know I'm there!". I actually don't like feeling ignored...it gives me the distinct feeling that I've done something to someone they weren't supposed to find out about, and that person is really,really pissed off. (Yes,indeed,this does happen to me on...occasion. *lol* Alright,occasion meaning about once every three days or so. Hmm...honesty is brutal! :-)
But,recently,I decided to get over my complex, and simply accept the fact that nobody REALLY wants to talk to me, and they simply pretend most of the time. No, it isn't paranoid! Whyever would you think that? *lol* This is definitely better than therapy. My friend Jonathan, who has decided to immortalise me in the form of a character I strongly resemble, in his ever-growing novel, has officially endorsed this page, on the basis that he is inspired to write for her everytime he hears my ramblings. Now,if that doesn't boost a girl's self-esteem,I don't know what does. *lol*
I recently raised the question of "Who Shot Laura Palmer?" as a mystery worthy of "great questions of the universe"...I have been corrected. Apparently,this mystery has already been solved. *lol* Thank you ever so kindly,loyal readers of this page..all 7 of you! *lol* There really is a story behind that (I know, it shouldn't surprise you in the least!), in that a friend of my formerly-significant other *laughs evilly* happened to have every Twin Peaks episode on tape, and on winter days when this particular circle of friends got snowed in,they'd watch the "Twin Peaks" marathon. Yes,I know. Could we have "People Who Need To Get Out More Often", for $500,Jen? *lol*
Thank you so kindly to everyone who has e-mailed me about things that would be "neat" and "cool" features on my website...I figure that we've really got to improve it before it is worthy of moving to its own corner of cyberspace, and visited by people who don't know me...we wouldn't want people saying this page is nothing more than a "glorified list of links"..because,as we all know, "there are two types of web sites...those which provide content,and those that link to it." *roflol* Not that anyone could ever criticise this page of such things, of course. But we'd better make certain..just in case. :-) So, this page is the beginning of my salute to content! Woo hoo! *laughs* Creativity is so utterly exhausting...help! *swoons melodramatically* When I get my domain, I promise, all of you dear ones get your own e-mail addresses...*grins*
Today in Western Civilisation, we learned that all of the legendary goddesses were virgins...except for Aphrodite,of course,because,in the words of my professor (who's got a very Frasier Crane-like voice..it's rather impressive), "For Aphrodite,virginity was sort of a lost cause." Hmmmph. I shall now be abandoning Aphrodite as an online name anywhere, and adopt a more reputable goddess. Any suggestions? *laughs* You see, general education curriculum does occasionally have some sort of relevance to my life! :-)
Well,that's all for the moment...let this serve as a disclaimer for future webspace wasted by quirky redhead nymphos. :-)

Presenting,in person, that very frightening group, "Les Miscellaneous!"...*applause*